Lost my quit.

Sorry board members. I've let myself down (and those who have given selfless support). Woke up this morning and got a pack on the way to work. Had 4 by lunch. Not a single one of them was satisfying in any way. I feel sick and miserable. 2 weeks of effort...wasted. well not really wasted. 2 weeks ago a cigarette was satisfying in a way that no longer seems possible. During the fourth one I realized it was not curing the crave I thought I had been having. What I had been having was not so much an urge to smoke as an urge to allow myself to do what I want...as if not smoking was the world depriving me of a right. What bulls**t. That's they way a 2 year old thinks, not a grown man.Pack is gone. Luckilly I haven't had enough to go into the physical withdrawals again. (whew). but it's time to re-read all of the info on Whyquit.com again.I'm going to dust myself off and beat this thing. I've got to remember: I'm no longer fighting a cigarette - I'm fighting an idea in my

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